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My Dad, of blessed memory, passed away just before Election Day in 2016. I always think of him, especially during the high holidays, because when I was growing up, we walked to the Synagogue together on Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur. When I moved out on my own, I started abandoning my faith. But the memory of those walks and refusing to drive on the High Holidays kept me from drifting away. This is how those walks helped me rediscover my faith.

My face felt flushed. I tried to regain my composure. “This is volunteer work. I don’t need the fights, the name-calling.” The Rabbi sat across from me quietly. I told him why I needed to resign from the Synagogue’s board of trustees.

When I ran out of excuses (and breath), there was a moment of silence as he studied me. He leaned back into the chair and began to speak softly, which had a calming effect. The Rabbi had his own checklist of reasons why I should remain in my position, but his last item stopped me dead. He said I was an observant Jew who encouraged others to embrace Judaism.Observant Jew? Wow! That was the first time in my life anyone had called me that. I never thought of myself as “observant.

Until recently, I was a three-day-a-year Jew who practically had a booth named after him at the local McDonalds. I used to stop there religiously on the way to the golf course for my 7:25 a.m. tee-off every Saturday morning.

My Rabbi’s very generous use of those words made me suddenly realize how much has changed over such a short period.

I didn’t grow up very observant. Sure, we would go to services two or three times a year on a Friday night. We always went on the High Holidays and had a big meal on Passover (our Seder consisted of two words, “let’s eat”). We even lit an electric Chanukah Menorah every year.

Despite our low observance level, my parents worked hard to instill strong feelings for my Jewish faith and heritage. They encouraged me to hang out with Jewish kids, allowed me to continue my religious studies after my Bar Mitzvah, and drove me to countless meetings of Jewish and pro-Israel organizations (even back then, I was an activist). Most importantly, I was told if I ever brought home a “shiksa,” a non-Jewish girl, my Mom would put her head in the oven (it was an idle threat. Our oven was electric, not gas).

The most vivid thing I remember about growing up is walking with my Dad all 26 blocks between my house and Oceanside Jewish Center on the High Holidays, both ways. It was a special time, just my father and me.

It was strange that my Dad felt the need to walk. Maybe he knew those walks would keep an ember burning inside me years later. As I aged and drifted away from the limited practice of Judaism growing up, the memory of those walks kept that tiny ember of faith from extinguishing.

For some reason, I always felt comfortable hanging around more observant people than me. I worked at the Hebrew Academy of Nassau County Day Camp; many girls dated in high school kept kosher and were Sabbath observant. I admired my observant friends for their willpower and wished that I could join them in their observance. But I felt it would be too hard to join them. I believed strongly in God but felt that becoming more observant was too high a mountain to scale, especially all at once. And if one couldn’t do it all—I was a hypocrite for observing some commandments and skipping others.

Not wanting to become a hypocrite, I went in the other direction and became a kind of a “social” Jew. I wrapped myself in the blanket of Jewish causes and organizations, using them to protect myself from the guilt I felt as I drifted further away from the few mitzvot I used to keep. I still took off for the High Holidays and would never drive on Rosh Hashanah or Yom Kippur because I always walked to Shul with my father.

Once I got married (my wife is Jewish, so my Mom was spared that slow suicide via electric oven), I started driving on the High Holidays, but only so we could attend services at my in-law’s Shul, an hour’s drive away.

After my in-laws moved to God’s waiting room (southern Florida), I would sneak into my sister’s Reform Temple for an hour on the Holidays. I told myself it was for my daughter so she could have some Judaism in her life. But somewhere inside, I knew I was going for myself. I wanted to be in a Synagogue.

When child number two was born, we moved and joined a shul within walking distance.

Just eight months after my first High Holiday walk to the new Shul, Lois’s Mom, of blessed memory, succumbed to a long illness. Even though we were not active in the Shul or observant, the Rabbi and the congregation immediately warmly embraced us. During the Shiva (the seven-day mourning period), the Rabbi visited or called every day, and the daily minyan came to our home in the evening.

This was a new experience for me. When I was growing up, the minyan only came to the homes of big donors or regular Shul attendees. But in the ensuing years, Shuls in suburbia changed. My new Shul didn’t care about our level of observance or how much money we donated. They were committed to comforting the bereaved because we were all part of the same Jewish community.

Talking to friends in different towns, they told me they noticed a similar change that I saw in their new congregations vs. their old ones.

After the seven days of Shiva, my wife went to our conservative Shul twice a day to say Kaddish (it’s done for 11 months minus one day). I joined her when I could, which usually didn’t include Shabbat (my golf day). However, the more I went, the more those old feelings began to seep out of that locked box stored in my mind––that desire to do more.

Around the same time, The United Synagogue (an organization of Conservative Synagogues) started a home study program. Each day, we read one chapter of the Tanach (the Jewish canon) and discussed it via an e-mail list. As a commuter, I thought reading on my way to work might be fun, so I joined. The more I read, the more I wanted to read, and within a few months, I was on every Jewish study e-mail list I could find. I began attending Shabbat afternoon services just to participate in the Torah discussion between afternoon and evening services.

Those old feelings of wanting to become more observant became strong again, but this time it was different. My Rabbi encouraged the congregation to become more observant, but it was okay to do it gradually. Judaism, he told us, isn’t all or nothing; any step toward a life of Torah was positive. Remember the story of Jacob and the ladder? It wasn’t where you were on the ladder that was important…it was the direction you were heading.

WOW! This felt like a new religion — “No-Guilt Judaism,” the more I read, the more I learned that approach is not unique (Note: don’t be shocked—guilt is still a huge part of Jewish parenting. My close friend Ed, an observant Catholic, claims his people invented guilt. That may be true, but the Jewish people marketed it much better.

I began to do little things (rationalizing that it was for the kids), like lighting candles Friday night to welcome the Sabbath. We went as a family to services every Friday night, too. I even built my first Sukkah, fooling myself into thinking that it was not for religious reasons but was a good project for the children (it is), and they love eating outside). They also enjoyed inviting their friends to the Sukkah, as did my wife and me.

Almost a year into my journey, I took the most challenging step of all. I gave up my prime real estate, the 7:25 a.m. Saturday morning golf tee-off. Even though my only Saturday observance was going to Shul, I didn’t want to give up the few hours of Shabbat that I did keep. The more I went, the stronger I felt connected with God. So, I gave up the Saturday tee time and found a time on Sundays. Strangely, my golf game worsened, which just goes on to prove that old proverb that the Lord works in mysterious ways.

We began to do a complete seder on Passover, but we made it fun. Who knew? That was how it was supposed to be done. We even added what my children called “cheap parlor tricks.” For example, we recreated the ten plagues (a glass with a thick bottom and Kosher strawberry “Jello” powder on the bottom of the glass. All you need to do is pour water into the glass, which looks like water turning to blood).

Over the next two years, slowly, more mitzvot began to sneak into my routine- never by design. Every once in a while, I would wake up wanting to do more. First, I decided to stop eating meat from non-kosher animals and mixing dairy with meat. I began to go to Shul for all the festivals (Sukkot, Passover, and Shavuot). I started to eat only dairy, pasta, or fish when Lois and I went to restaurants. Eventually, my freezer at home was stocked with kosher meat even though my house was not all kosher.

I have learned much about the spirit of practicing Judaism. Jewish rituals are not purely the solemn rites in Shul as I had always thought. God is much more intelligent than that. Almost every Jewish holiday has an essential element practiced at home, so they are a chance to relish your time making holy memories with family and friends. And by the way, it’s okay to make them fun.

Have you ever sat in front of a dish of peanuts at a party? You try one peanut, wait a while, and soon you have another. The more you have, the faster you want them. Eventually, you’re jealously guarding your spot on the couch by that dish of peanuts. That’s what adding mitzvot to one’s life is like. The key is that you don’t have to eat the whole bowl in one sitting, nor do you feel bad when peanuts are left.

Rabbi Louis Finkelstein, a great scholar and former Chancellor of the Jewish Theological Seminary of America, once defined a good Jew as someone trying to become a better Jew. That is the key–you don’t have to do it all at once because when you do one mitzvah regularly, something as easy as lighting candles every Friday night, eventually you will want to do another and another.

I once read that when God created the world, sparks of his holiness were spread across the earth. Every time someone performs one of the 613 mitzvot in the Torah, one of those sparks is purified and sent back to heaven. I don’t know if sparks had anything to do with it, but each time I added one of those 613 commandments to the way I ran my life, I felt a little closer to God. That added a bit of closeness that made me want more.

The guilt I used to feel for not observing everything at once is now replaced with joy about the direction I am heading on the ladder. My friend Faith, a Conservative Rabbi, put it well. She said that it’s not that I don’t observe a particular commandment… it’s that I don’t observe it…yet.

The day after my discussion with the Rabbi, my Dad called and asked me if I had changed my mind about quitting the board. I told him that I had. He said, “Good, because that’s where you belong.”

He didn’t realize I would have never gotten there if he drove to Shul on Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur. It was clinging to that one mitzvah, that 26-block walk with my Dad, which put me on the road to observance.

I still walked to Shul on the High Holidays when I moved to my new home. It wasn’t 26 blocks; it was a mile and a quarter over two big hills and a valley. I walked to Shul with my Kids. Some day, when they look back at these walks, I hope they will be as important to them as they were for my Dad and me.

Because of some physical problems, I can’t walk to Shul anymore, but because of the ties to the Jewish community that my Dad helped me build, going to Shul and observing the Jewish faith and trying to move up the ladder is still a crucial part of my life.

Dad passed away six years ago; however, more than the rest of the year, during Yamim Noraim (High Holidays), my Dad is with me….in my heart.

Gmar Chatimah Tova גמר חתימה טובה
May you be sealed in the Book of Life for a Happy And Healthy New Year.


Please Note: During my continuing attempt to keep moving up the ladder, I learned that Israel is the eternal homeland of the Jewish people. That’s why I joined the Zionist Herut Movement. Herut is an international movement for Zionist pride and education dedicated to the ideals of pre-World War Two Zionist leader Ze’ev Jabotinsky. Jeff Dunetz (The Lid) is an active member and Director of Special Projects of the Herut North America organization. More about Herut can be found at–Please click on this link and join me in this great organization.

I look forward to welcoming you.



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